[verse 1]
my mind-state was negative back in my late teens
but I’ve been Fresh Out The Oven since I was 18
I’m shooting birds at everybody hating on my dreams
dealing with the bullshit, feeling like I need to scream
no one knows what’s really going on inside my brain
some of my thoughts make me feel like I’m going insane
running like a chicken with a cut-off head
I said “fuck this prescription”/ I’m tryna come off these meds
I was lost and now I finally found my way
what the hell is it to you if I don’t pray?
take all the time you want to complain/
but I won’t be engaged by whatever you say
I’ve been thinking too much/ I’m stuck in my mind
look at my face & you would think I’m just fine
tell me something crazy, watch it take me by surprise
I can’t escape society, it’s like I’m trapped inside!
[bridge]
(no one knows what’s really going on inside my brain
but you might not understand me if I try to explain
no one knows what’s really going on inside my brain
you showing fake smiles when you can’t take the pain)
everybody got some issues like a magazine (yeah, that’s right)
everybody got some issues like a magazine (I’ma say that shit again, yeah)
[hook - 2x]
everybody got some issues like a magazine
said some shit I didn’t mean/ now she’s mad at me
shooting birds if ya hating on my dreams
dealing with the bullshit, feeling like I need to scream
[verse 2]
I used to read Game Informer magazine/
till I realized I had a passion for music
and even when I die, I’ma keep living through it
so my lifespan is gonna be/ 10-3-93 to infinity
the past ain’t the present, it don’t mean shit to me
so don’t bring it up
you couldn’t pay me enough for me to give a fuck/
cuz I’m already putting in work so I can get the bucks
nobody can tip the balance of my scales
I’ve been through a lot of shit & lived to tell the tale
I refuse to be another n**** that’s living in jail
fuck being depressed & feeling like I’m a failure
I got my own life to live
some people suck, but I got a lot of love to give
I’m just tryna stay positive in a world full of bullshit
credits
from DRAGONFLY,
released July 6, 2018
Produced by Ryan Shreds
Recorded July 2017
Synthesizers, Keyboards, 808s, Drum Programming, Vocals: Ryan Shreds
Situationist coldwave from France that is deliciously icy, high-drama vampire vocals colliding with icy synth & guitar. Bandcamp New & Notable Nov 7, 2021